A Christmas Skype conversation between me age 17 and me age 30

30 - Hello, hello, can you hear me ?

17 - Yes, but there’s an echo.

30 - Uuuuh I hate Skype.

17 - Don’t worry, it’s not too bad.

30 - This is why long distance relationships don’t work. Because you’re turned into a stuttering fourth grader.

17 - I don’t know much about long distance relationships.

30 - You say something funny and then you have to wait those humiliating two seconds before you get a response.

17 - Aha.

30 - You will know all about it in a few years.

17 - Ok.

30 - Anyway, I just wanted to say hi and merry christmas.

17 - Merry christmas.

30 - It’s nice to see you.

17 - You too.

30 - Love your hair.

17 - Really ?

30 - Yes.

17 - So what’s up?

30 - I’m just finishing the songs for my new album. Next month I will be doing the final recordings and then it should be done.

17 - How exciting, what’s it about?

30 - You know, it’s about that time after you’ve come out of a relationship and you come to terms with what has happened and how you deal with it.

17 - Aha.

30 - One day you’re ok and the next you’re not and you long for that time when you will feel whole again. You’re looking for closure and then you realize that there is no such thing. You don’t get over a broken heart, you just learn to carry it as gracefully as you can.

17 - It sounds boring and middle aged.

30 - It probably is but hey, I’m not seventeen anymore.

17 - So it’s an album for the brokenhearted?

30 - Yes, but also for the heartbreaker. It doesn’t take sides. It’s for the ones who wish they were somewhere else, with someone else. And for the ones who wake up choking under the sheets of a relationships.

17 - Yes.

30 - I was worried for a while, that the songs were too self centered, that only I would be able to understand them. As if I was singing my diary, or having a dialogue with myself.

17 - You mean a monologue?

30 - I mean like what we’re doing right now.

17 - Uhm yes.

30 - But I feel now, after having lived with these songs for a while and playing some of them live, they seem to be doing their job.

17 - Yes.

30 - Well, I’m not gonna keep you long. Just wanted to wish you a merry christmas.

17 - It was nice to hear from you.

30 - Oh, one more thing. About all those times when I told you you were worthless and wouldn’t amount to anything. I was wrong, I’m sorry about that.

17 - I know. It’s ok.

30 - No it’s not ok. Look, I’m still doing it. Bossing you around. Talking to you like you don’t know anything.

17 - Yeah but…

30 - No, I’m a total dick and you should say something. Speak up for yourself, to yourself.

17 - Jerk.

30 - That’s more like it. (via Smalltalk)